Future Shadows

 I’ve hidden in future shadows, always trying to be what I think people want me to be.  I can see it in their hearts and faces, they need me to be this, they will not be able to see me unless I can be what they need me to be in that moment.  I am ready to be what I need to be in the moment that makes me feel more like me and that’s all I can really say at this point.  If that is my next big step into making it into the next phase, this bridge I can’t seem to skip over, then that is it.  I can’t exhaust myself anymore, I am only some sort of particles, I am not a piece of wood, a stable tree bent in one way, I have to move into a more fluid like state, something that can’t be labeled or pinned down or rained on. I have to be more than that, and I can’t give myself away anymore, I can’t be fallen leaves, or evaporated rain, or rays of sunshine that only give way to love if it’s dark enough.